actually now that I think about it I feel i should mention the pick-me-up story below is more of a specific pick-ME-up story, for me- I don’t know if it has any life lesson applicable to other people. maybe? well if it cheers you up too then I guess I did it right
I’m going to tell a little pick-me-up story because I need to think about something uplifting. Feel free to read or skip. This is something that happened this August, when Matt and I went to Burning Man. Now, if you ever wanna feel fucking terrible about your body, go to Burning Man because all the girls there are like STUPID hot and theres you in the midst of them going “oh hey guess whose never wearing a bathing suit again oh its me”. If you want extra icing on the body-image cake, make friends with the camp next door which consists of the high class stripper from New York and her friend the professional trapeze artist.
hang on, this story goes up. Bear with me.
on top of being smokin’ hot these girls were a bit nerdy, too. The stripper (oh fuck i forgot her god damned name i swear i did learn it) was a huge fan of the Venture Brothers cartoon. When i told her i was studying animation she bragged about how she’d met Doc Hammer and Jackson Publick in real life and had their phone numbers and was friends with them, how she’d hang out with them at New York conventions.
So now I’m feeling a bit shit because theres this incredibly beautiful girl who knows all these people I wish I knew in the animation industry and then Matt says to me;
"Shen, she spent the week bragging about how she knew an animator. You’re an animator.”
BAM. TON OF BRICKS. Why the hell was I comparing myself to this girl? I don’t want to be her- I want to be Doc Hammer (in this scenario haha). I want to be the one that someone brags that they know to strangers in the desert because what i do is so fucking awesome. I’m only on step 1, finish school. I can do all sorts of shit from here. I can make a popular cartoon, why not? I’m older than my classmates and not as pretty as many but who fucking cares, its not too late for me. theres lots of shit I have time to do. I can be successful. I can be a person somebody tells their friends later at a party that they met.
Okay. I can draw now.
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Can anyone tell me what Pokemon this is? Not the transformer I know what that is, the thing in front of it
theres a certain amount of bad animation techniques I can get away with in the werewolf transformation scene like going off-model and volume shifts and even a bit of wiggling but the trick is trying to make it look like I did it on purpose and not like a jittery god damned shitty mess since this is sort of the crux of my project
I wish I had more than a single semester to ink and paint an entire 2 minute film, I couldn’t even do a tie-down pass, I’m inking right on top of my roughs which is making for a lot of impromptu cleanup and hair pulling. i could make this thing a fucking MASTERPIECE if I had time to go back and fix my mistakes but i’m aiming for quantity over quality at this point.
6 days til dad gets to town. 6 scenes to finish before he gets here. Come on, Shen.
okay i’ve been texting matt all day about what a shitty day I’m having and how crummy I feel and he wasn’t responding so i thought he wasn’t getting my messages cuz my 3G hasn’t been working right on my phone lately but just now he came all the way to school to bring me a bacon cheeseburger and a mountain dew I love that man
I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much in one week. Just now i even broke down and cried in front of my teacher. so. you know. a winner is me.
I feel like such an asshole. Crying isn’t going to bring back my dead fish or make my dead cat any less of a taxidermist’s arts and crafts project. It’s not going to make my $600 drawing tablet any less of a waste of time and money. And it certainly isn’t going to extend the deadline of this movie.
And behind everything is the memory that last time I graduated college and got my BA, I couldn’t find work, couldn’t drive a car, couldn’t pay rent, was a burden on my friends and basically locked myself in a room and cried for an entire year. And I’m afraid that will happen again.
also i think I’m catching a cold so everything’s comin’ up Milhouse right about now.
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A FUCKIG TRADITIONAL POLISH COSTUME GENERATOR REALLLY??!?!??!????????????????????????????? really?
i can dream
I have mixed feelings about this
SPARKLE WOLF TO THE RESCUE
are you kidding
posed this question to my schoolmates on FB, a guy I know who works for Cintiq is like “well you know my recommendation, but I’m biased!” haha I can’t afford your recommendation dude, unless you can get me a discount. i don’t think he can get me a discount.